I’ve just had a tetris moment. No, I haven’t just been playing tetris for so many hours that I had a dream about tetris (it’s happened. The minecraft dream on top of that served as a chilling reminder that marathons of video games have consequences). A tetris moment, or what some might call an epiphany, is that moment where suddenly a fact slides into place and the whole world makes sense. Obviously it doesn’t all go ding and disappear like it does in actual tetris, but it’s pretty much the same.
So my tetris moment has been: stress headaches! Yep, that’s it. I get stress headaches. Now, you might think to yourself: but Charlie, isn’t that really fucking obvious? Well, I’m here to tell you that it isn’t! Or wasn’t! Maybe I’m just dim? Anyway, the realisation struck me yesterday in a lecture (it was really boring, OK? My attention drifted briefly) when I suddenly realised that my headaches and general malaise seemed to coincide with bad or stressful news. And stressful events, and things that I was worried about…
You might, if you were feeling a bit unkind, ask why this is such a revelation to me. Well, a lot of the time I get headaches when I’m out and about on a day trip. So sometimes it can be a bit tricky to tell whether I’m anxious about the trip or just stupidly dehydrated because I’ve forgotten to have anything to drink. It could possibly be a combination of the two, but if I’m perfectly honest I never get headaches when I’m at home or at uni and don’t drink anything for a couple of hours so that might not be so much of a factor.
The most important part about this revelation is the fact that I’m so good at compartmentalising things (1. I’m stressed and 2. I have a headache) that I never realise that they’re connected in any particular way. So my February resolution is going to be: to be more mindful about things.
and maybe to drink more water when I’m away from home.